Cleaning up my account and other things

I finally did it…I went through every server I had toons on, which wasn’t many, and deleted any I knew I would never touch again.  I didn’t delete any 85s, just toons below 80 that I would likely never play again.  That felt good!  I even found an old Shaman on another server that was leveled as Enhancement!  She is collecting dust but maybe I will dust her off late in the next expansion.  It didn’t feel strange or anything, deleting toons…probably because I hadn’t been on any of them in a year or more.

Ezdenia @76

I think a Draenei Shaman has me curious because I have been Horde for so long.  And after 4 years I guess I am ready to try the other side and see what its like.  But not just yet.
After being on Prednisone for a week and a half, today I feel like crap again.  It has made me slow down and realize that this is not going to be a quick recovery.  And I need to not over do it.  Easy to say, hard to do.

So what else can I do to keep busy?  I have been pondering that for a few days…and I think that its time to put a more serious effort into my blog.  That alone should use up quite a bit of time.  With MoP coming up, I could stream a day of randoms or just Fraps a few things to see how I like it.                                                                                                                                  I am not really good at trying to tell folks how to play or help with their healing, there are plenty of other sites that do that without literally holding ones hand…but videos might be an idea.  I just don’t know if I want to do all the editing that many do on theirs.  Streaming is an idea…but I don’t want to go all out on that either.  So maybe a little of both?…and see how it goes?   Also posting on regular intervals is much needed, although much of that depends on how I feel from day to day.

With just two weeks until MoP drops, that gives me a decent amount of time to get things planned out a little, while getting more done on Ezdenia and Trivenna in that time.  Ezdenia is level 76 today and I set up the UI for Trivenna last night before bed.  So now its a matter of nose to the grindstone and I will have these three gals ready to do what is needed of them in the new expansion.  If I level a Panda-something, it won’t be for quite a while.

So…I need to get Ezdenia that last 9 levels and have her Enchanting/Tailoring maxed out and then get busy on Trivenna…and have it all done by the night before launch…hopefully.  Oh, and do the Theramore event on Calizari.  Am I trying to do too much?  I don’t know…probably.  Leveling is so easy now, even without Heirlooms.  I just want to stay busy and be as close as possible to having the professions I need ready to help Calizari not have to buy gems, flasks, bags or Enchants and at the same time be able to sell extras on the AH and save up a pile of gold. If I get it done before launch…then maybe I can take a day or two off and finish reading First King of Shannara by Terry Brooks.  I really love the Shannara series.  And getting away from the computer for a couple days would probably be a good thing.  Now if I could actually do it.


New Rheumy doc and todays visit…

Today is the fourth day of being sore in every joint and the third day of not being able to play WoW.  It was my first visit to the new rheumatologist tho and was a little surprised what he had to tell me.

After a 3 hour day at the doctors office, doing background history and him looking at blood test results from earlier this year and poking and proding me and questions upon questions and more questions…he is retesting me for a few things and will be doing a couple MRIs in 3 weeks before starting me on any meds.  Mostly because he thinks my pain is not from Fibromyalgia alone…he thinks I have early onset Rheumatoid Arthritis.

So what could be worse than Fibro?  Any one of the autoimmune diseases…sigh.  After spitting that out, he asks me if there is any history of arthritis in my family….um, yes my mother had rheumatoid arthritis…bad enough her docs wanted her to have back surgery and fuse her spine together…to which she told them exactly where they could go.  This was 10 years or so ago tho.

So, now I am in the waiting mode again to see if this new doctor can figure out what the heck is going on with me.  Telling me I am a mess does not count as a diagnosis of anything.  And yes, those were his exact words…I am a physical mess.  Ya think?  He says I am fixable to an extent;  since there are no cures for either Fibromyalgia or Rheumatoid Arthritis.  Time will tell.

He asked me what hobbies I have.  I said I play WoW when I am able and read one of the many Terry Brooks Shannara series books when I can’t play.  He didn’t have much to say to that.   😉

On a sillier note…can you see an Orc shaman gimping along in the very back of the group, grunting and throwing out heals as she went?  That would be me lately.  At least my toons are racking up some rested time…hopefully I will get some rested time too.  I could use the boost.

The Fibro days of summer

I have had a couple rough days and have not been able to sit at my computer much less work on leveling my Shaman or Priest.  Instead, as I lay on my bed yesterday, waiting for the 1/2 Oxycodone to kick in (left over from when hubby had dental work done), I decided to try to write out something (anything) by hand.  I was just so incredibly sore and to the point where I finally gave up and was ready to try anything that would stop or at least make the pain more manageable. The Tramadol has done diddly to help with any of the pain.  So I gave up and took the good stuff.

You see, Saturday I wasn’t feeling so good but not really bad and I thought maybe a little indoor gardening was in order to chase away the blahs.   I managed to re-pot 4 smaller plants and then had my youngest help me with my biggest one.  I didn’t think it was all that much effort or that I was over doing it. It wasn’t like I was trying to hurry or anything.

Anyway, here is what I managed to write while lying in bed Sunday, please pardon my language:

Days like today really piss me off. I didn’t feel so great yesterday and it was enough to send me into one of those ‘get something done’ days. More or less, I tried to stay busy so I didn’t have time to think about how crappy I was feeling.

I didn’t go crazy or at least I didn’t think I had.  But today, I can barely write or tolerate my 15 year old.  And all it took was to repot a few plants.  That’s it, nothing major.  The biggest one my son helped me with, so it wasn’t like I did more than I could handle. But geez…really?  Repotting four plants total kicked up my Fibro enough that it’s literally kicking my ass today?  For real?  This is BS!

I stopped taking the Amytriptyline almost 2 weeks ago.  I do not like how it made me feel.  The only good thing I found that it could do was quiet my brain down  and kept it from running at 100mph or faster the minute I crawled into bed.  Other than that, it made me sleepy longer into the following day and I ended up sleeping longer than I normally would.  I also found that it made me a bit paranoid as well.  Not nutty paranoid but stupid shit that I knew better than to ever think in the first place. And the weird as hell dreams?  Ugh.

I am not depressed…I am pissed off!!  Pain makes me a cranky granny.  The worse the pain, the better chance somebody will be offended or told to go away.  Today is one of those days.  Which is why I gave in and took the Oxy and am waiting for it to kick in.

I have problems getting to sleep and staying asleep.  My husband explains it best I guess when he says that If a mice could fart I would hear it in my sleep and be instantly wide awake and looking for the little bugger.  That is no joke.  Whatever causes it, I have no clue.  All I know is, that I can go from dead on my feet to wide-the-hell-awake in an instant from anything that gets past the white noise of my fan(s).  Snoring from either my hubby or my son (from the next room no less!), passing thunderstorm(s), noisy neighbors, or even the ringing in my ears.

I just keep telling myself its only two more days…two more days.

In the mean time hubby has the other half of that Oxy ready for me for later when I am ready to go to bed. Anything to get me through til my appointment on Tuesday.  I can’t do this much longer, I need some kind of help to sleep and for the pain and burning that drives me up the wall because once it starts it will not stop for days.

So no playing WoW for me today.  I think I was lucky I managed to stay logged in on Calizari yesterday for 30-45 min. before I gave up and shut it down.  But I did manage to read quite a few great blogs later on throughout that day.  So it wasn’t totally boring for me…I just have to do a little at a time when I am like this.  Maybe that was too much too, I don’t know.  At this point I admit I have no clue why or what is causing the flares to be so regular and to last for so long.

I just hate this.  I have a few days here and there, where I feel good enough that I start thinking I might be able to work again.  Then, I get a rude awakening after days like yesterday and today.  Fibromyalgia is a bitch…and I stick by the idea that if Fibro were a person, they would be long dead.  Somebody would have lost sense of all that they are and would have done Fibro in for sure.  Hell, I would have made it the quickest and cheapest cure in the world….one shot, one kill.  No more pain…for any of us.

Today is looking like it will be a repeat of yesterday…I am sore and the burning is back.  I probably am over doing it now just by typing this out.  Grrr!

I hope tomorrow is better.  I am not missing my appointment for anything…even if hubby takes the day off to get me there.

New Rheumatologist finally…

But I have to wait until July 17th for my appointment.  At least this doctor looks like he has quite a bit of experience since he specializes in Fibromyalgia.  All I have to do is make it to that day….and right now it may as well be a year away, the way I am feeling.

Out of the last 4 nights, I have had insomnia for 3 of them.  The meds from the original rheumy they sent me to are doing NOTHING to help me sleep or for the pain.  So far I think the only good thing is that my iron level seems to be improving.  Which means that the anemia isn’t fighting the insomnia anymore….not sure which one I would rather have right now.

So from here on until I can see the new doc, no caffiene for me.  Before it was all that would help keep me awake.  Now it helps the insomnia and keeps me up until 2-3am.

I can’t play WoW, I can barely hold up a book to read and typing takes forever. So it looks like today is one of those days I rest and relax as much as humanly possible.

Think I will try bumping up my Tramadol by 50mg for a day or so and see if that helps.  I have to do something, this is no way to live.  Maybe some music to help me relax…